wow..God, You are so amazing.

God is an amazing God. let me tell you why. over the past weeks, i had to handle work, support raising for gen12, preparation for my church small evangelism camp and x roads. and nothing was really going the way i wanted it to be.

my support raising was BAD. while many of the team members raised the full sum, i was still at my 25% and i felt sooo demoralised to the point tt i just wanted to skip the weekly meetings. i felt soo bad and so no face cos its afterall only 350 and other teams raised thousands and have left and came back! so i was struggling so much with God. in my mind there were battles with God asking Him why did He send me on a mission trip and yet there's no provision for me. i even thought why am i so silly to get myself into more stuff when i could prob just take a little break after PA and not deal with tis support raising at all. i struggled really hard with God and at the end of the mind-battles, i know i just had to proclaim tt He is the Jehovah provider and in His time He will provide for me. i just got to remain still before Him. i did tt. continued going to meetings with the little funds i had and just kept trusting Him. the funds came in to 200 bucks. and i still had 150 to raise in one week. and i have NO idea when and from where its going to come from! only hoping the church would give me the funds.

ok. that was that. then i had to settle x roads as well. had NO idea how to plan for it. but thank God i met up with Albert who helped alot! and den i met up with my X Roads com and juliana. its so encouraging to see kelvin and rachel serving the Lord and it excites me to work together with them! we're missing a paul..but he'll be back soon =) and so thank God tt tis is like considered 'done' for the moment. so i could handle more things.

den came the church evangelism camp. this was pretty interesting..the idea of tis camp was born 6 months ago over a casual discussion tt my service lacked the evangelism spirit and i thought we shld all be equipped to evangelise! so that conversation ended up with some of us deciding a camp shld be done. so great. thank GOd tt He provided all the materials tt we needed and i simply prepared the camp booklet with much joy. the frustrations started setting in when i didnt know who was coming for the camp and nobody seemed really responsive to it as well. so my struggle with God began again. i asked God why did He tell me to have such a camp when nobody seems to want to come? it was just SO EASY to cancel the entire camp and get on with life. to continue to let things run the way it was. i was demoralised by the responses we had. and somehow i sensed tt tis was all spiritual attack. i knew tt i was the core person tt the devil had to hit and the whole camp's moral will just dampen and the devil will take great delight in that. and the Lord showed me His will that He WANTS us to be equipped, He WANTS us to go and share. i thank GOd for showing me this so i told myself and my fren that even if just ONE camper turns up, we must and should give thanks. on friday night, there were 15 of us in total. i was glad and thanked God. so we went on with the training and its amazing because the responses to the training of the satisfied booklet and wys booklet was sooo responsive! the campers wanted to use the tools to share with their other friends and yes even to go evangelise.

so we went street e on sat. it was amazing. i was filled with joy when i saw the younger ones going out to share and they were so determined to share. wei si told me "i really just want to share the booklet with one person, so even if i do badly for my exams on monday, i will be happy" That touched my heart soooo much and i tink it even touches God's heart soo much more! and praise the Lord, one person received Christ as well! there were just 11 of us out on the streets for ard 2 hrs, and ONE guy received Christ! the boy who shared was in a state of shock when tt happened. it was soo funny and super amazing. he watched the video and didnt feel tt the perfect scenario could actually happen, but our God is humourous. He let it happen with him. =) and even more amazing is that the seniors (whom i roped in to help teach and guide the young ones) gained ALOT from the camp as well! it was amazing to see everybody feeling the presence of God and witnessin how He really is in our lives. i really thank GOd for how He really works in each and everyone of our lives. and did i mention that the camp was a less den 24 hrs camp? and lives were changed soo much. all glory to GOd!!! and even when we came back to share to the rest today, many responses were 'i wish i was there'. its sooo amazing. i thank God for using me and the rest of us to serve Him in this manner. all i can say is that He is so amazing.

and guess wat? when i shared with my fren (leehuan) during some free time tt i was having problems with my support raising, she told me she will support me the 150 bucks. cos she had 130 overflow which she wanted to pass to a missionary, and she didnt know who! so hey hey..tts ME! and she will top up to 150 for me. i was soo amazed. =))

i guess its good to struggle with God and let Him win. you can really taste the sweetness of His goodness at the end of it all. soo wonderful.

im all His =))