MetaMorphosis - Rooted and Built Up

back from an awesome meta camp!! =)) i'll say meta will always be the best camp(s) in my life. to be around like-minded God-loving pple is always a priviledge. learnt alot this camp. so here goes!!

some really basic stuff tt we tend to forget. we forget that God loves us JUST AS WE ARE! we are blessed, loved, His precious ones and He is always thinking of us. sometimes i cant understand how He can love me just as i am. but im glad and thankful that it is just by HIS GRACE that we stand, by HIS GRACE we can be called His precious children. it is indeed a TRUTH that God loves us, so despite the feeling that we may experience, we cannot deny the fact that He loves us and sent His Son, Jesus to die on the cross for us. So, WHY DID JESUS DIE? He died to set us free from sins. He was the willing, pleasing sacrifice that used His blood to wash our sins as WHITE as snow. and all this cannot be a lie. bcos NO MAN would DIE for a lie. Jesus was executed bcos He claimed to be the Son of God and even to the point of death, He would not deny this fact. so if any normal man was to go through all the whipping and humiliation and even being nailed on the cross for a lie, he would have admitted he was lying. but Jesus did NOT admit to lies. He faced the cross out of obedience to the Father. so Jesus died. but here's the BIG difference. HE ROSE AGAIN 3 days later! He is not a dead God. we are NOT worshipping a dead body. He is THE LIVING GOD. it is a distinct difference between all other religions and Christianity. and Jesus said He is the way, the truth and the life. no one comes to the Father except through Him. =)) so what's next? we all have to receieve Him into our lives. He loves us SO MUCH!! and this love runs deeper than the ocean and it stretches as wide as the ends of the earth.

wells. besides this, i personally experienced how God prepared the ground that i went during Project X (evangelism). how the people's hearts were so responsive is really the work of God and not by any man's own efforts so we may not boast, but give praise and glory to Him. =))

and also our vision. MOVEMENTS EVERYWHERE - so that EVERY STUDENT will know someone who truly follows Jesus. this campus is one which the Lord has given us, we must be good stewards of it and yeps, BUILD MOVEMENTS! as long as we have a willing heart, God will be able to do a great work in and through us. but its a CHOICE we make. we choose to let God use us. me myself am NOTHING, but God can show His everything through me. and this meta, i learnt what it was to MAKE a CHOICE to praise and worship Him. i knew in my heart i was angry at God for the rain on tues which spoilt all the games plan, and i was questioning God why did it rain. afterall we had really worked really hard for the games and prayed really hard. but i came to realise this anger came from the frustrations and confusion i felt when the rain came. and when we were singing the song that goes 'i will worship', in my heart i was telling God 'yes, i will still CHOOSE to worship You despite everything'. and im glad i made that choice. and i pray that should the world collapse, each and everyone of us will still make the choice of CHOOSING to praise Him.

and thank God for the great CG i had and the new brothers and sisters that i came to know! they're all great encouragement to me. to see how each and everyone seeks to serve God with whatever they have. its marvellous. lifes change, hearts change. and all this are NOT the work of Man. but the work of God. =))

im all His =))

me. the sentimental old cow.

haha. yeps i am a sentimental old cow! not that i didnt oredi know that. but i just proved it again when i was diggin out all the soft toys for liren to bring to bangla! =)) haha. i have kept ALL the toys that were presents and even toys since i was in pri sch, even though old garfield and donald and little blue rabbit and even the old macdonald teddy bear are ALL REALLY OLD, they are all in tact and i cant bear to throw them away. so they are all kept in the cupboards to avoid trapping dust! haha. so im still keeping them even though my mum might be complaining. haha! to add on to my sentimentalness, i still have almost all the letters that i've ever receieved since primary sch. haha so ms poon shu min, all our memories are still there to refresh man! so nice. yeps and my journals from primary schools and the diarys tt i've ever written. haha. i love being sentimental. helps me to keep memories in check. =))

anyways had a super insightful and exciting AND MIND-STIMULATING (which explains y i was totally exhausted after the summit) uni summit with campus crusade. learnt alot about MOVEMENT EVERYWHERE - so that every student will know somebody who truly follows Jesus. and its really exciting because we have this 52,000 uni students that God wants us to reach out to! and u know God can really reach all these students on their own. but He chose to involve us! like how He waited for David for 40 days before David used some stone to kill that big giant (dunno how to spell Gor-liar?). now, we are the chosen generation to be involved with Him in this BIG EXCITING plan! =)) it was a time of reflecting too, knowing God's heartbeat and wanting to be in sync with it. =)) and you know, our GOD IS A BIG GOD. we can dream BIG DREAMS because HE IS THE BIG GOD.

and i have thanksgiving many many. =)
God do listen to His children's cries.

im all His =))

frustration

haiz. feelin frustrated over watever is happening now. grandma's not going to get better and it sucks watching her suffer so much. every breath she takes is also xing ku now. i can only pray and pray and i dun even know wat to expect. haiz. super super sian. n i wish dad will just stop telling me im fat. im feeling shitty enuff. thanks.

im all His =))

Centre Of My Life by Hillsongs

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes upon you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto you

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
You placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song not mine
It is your song that bring healing to this land
This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song

another beautiful song!! =)) so so nice.

im all His =))

grandma

grandma is currently in hospital and i thank God for thru it i learnt some lessons. life is precious, and if all life comes to an end, and its just death, i will really hate this life. whereas, i believe that in my life there is eternity with God to look forward to. and that's wat gives me hope and a purpose in life. and well before going for the seniors' retreat, i already saw how bad a state grandma was and i was totally praying that nothing will happen. but on the 3rd day or so, my sis sms me and told me grandma was in hospital, i could only cry. bcos i know grandma has not heard abt God yet. and God gave an opportunity for the house girls to help me pray for grandma and when retreat ended, i went to see her. i didn't know how to share with her den, so could only pray for God to bring pple to her. and praise God, He did! even after i shared with her the nxt day in my SUPER CANNOT MAKE IT hokkien, joyce came to share with her, armed with hokkien gospel. i was so thankful! and everyday i've been praying for her. and God really bring pple to help me pray as well. though she seems to be still the same, at least i know that God is going to work in her life somehow. I SURRENDER ALL. =))

im all His =))